endothermic.

can't relax
got jabs
in the small of my back
my pulse is pounding
feels like stab wounds
in my head
when i stand
hard to be happy
without motivation
hard to get motivated
on such a shaky platform
hard to stop shaking
when you can't sleep
because the terror
will get you in your dreams
doing nothing is more
exhausting than it should be
the world is
not what it seems
now every second
my mind speeds and i
can't relax.