Loneliness is enough
To make me throw up the white flag
I will surrender gladly for a single companion
I don't need an army of adulation
The right person is enough, quite enough
Is plenty and then some
But loneliness is like the weight of a gun
In my pocket with its constant reminder
Temptation to don blinders
And I'm holding my eyes closed
With all my might
So I can't see the million things I'm missing
Without you.
Monday, April 3
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11 comments:
I understand your sentiment here but feel it is a bit insensitive. Taunya reads these entries too and although she and I have had our problems, I never thought she was trying to deliberately sabotage me. I don't think she understands me very well, nor me her, and our difficulties stemmed for from this than from any maliciousness.
Now, in your comment you never say that there was any maliciousness. But for a wife to read the sentence "the first is never the best" is perhaps not the most sensitive or kind way to get your point across. I know she has tried. If things haven't worked out, it's for for reasons of fundamental incompatibility (at least I choose to believe so) than simple character flaws in absolute terms.
I don't mean to slag off anyone in this comment, I just feel a bit defensive toward ny wife of ten years, who has stuck by me through many tough times when she might have easily bailed. If things don't work out, and if there IS a second time, and if it IS better, then so be it, but I can't make that call now. Thanks for understading.
Ah! You weren't supposed to reply.=)
No I am not from Moréal, thankfully))
But I am fluent in french. And by fluent, I mean franglais (frenglish) fluent, hah. If you've been to Moréal you'd know what I mean.
And since you brought to heart the WONDERFUL Loneliness..
The real frenchies snatched my best friend with their tempting froggy legs. Now I'm left to fend for myself in this dreadful place, at the worst of times. There are no colors without her. My canvases are bare and obscured.
P.S. The gun could potentially come in handy. hah ...(um, maybe that's only funny in Canada?) =) (my mind alone?)
P.S. Do you own a gun? Is that an accurate assumption ?
Yes I live in an igloo.
Anonymous!
that was really beautifully written. i am listenin to julie london's cry me a river which only heightens the melancholy. but yea, im awed.
You are a Gordian knot piece of work girl, and I mean that in the best of all possible ways.
No I don't own a gun, I'm against them and abhor everything they stand for. I'll probably pick one up next week, though. I adore violence.
My only experience with Canada is BC, so I'm a bit sheepish about saying I've been there at all.
But I do like several bands from Quebec. Trendy I know but quality is quality no matter how many people trample about on it.
The worst of times are often my best of times. When I'm complacent my life is warm, comfortable, and shite.
Today I am having trouble keeping my eyes off my sneakers, the water out of my eyes, and I'm off to the local animal shelter to see if I can find me an orange kitten.
Is your igloo comfortable? Does it fit two? Have you ever personally met Bjork?
I am off now for my kitten to make the world right again. Write me back sometime; you are beguiling in a most beguiling sort of way.
Anonymous (Justin)
Merci lastlifeinmyuniverse (fantastic name). I am touched that you liked my poem. You have at least one beautiful green eye from your picture; No doubt the other one rivals it closely.
Stay connected.
Sometime:
A Gordian knot piece? (?)
I'm juvenile is all. And abstract.
Life in an igloo is isolating, with just my snowdog and I. The cold consumes our toes. I only have three left. It's rediculous, so I'm thinking about instaling a furnice. That'll go over well.
Cats are selfish creatures, but their eyes are entrancing. I'd say congrats on the new feline, but no. And that "poor" thing will be horrified by the violence. Unless of course you postpone the gun errand. hah.
and NO, I have not met Bjork.
Well I think that's enough damage for today.
P.S. I wouldn't postpone.
Anonymous (Nicola)
bff = a ha!
Anonymous is a lovely name. I think I may name a future child of mine that.
Furnace in an igloo = no.
Intention of actually buying a gun = never.
Cats are entirely selfish, whih is why they're so fascinating. They're like humans without a guilt complex.
If I bump into bjork in California, I will scold her for never having sought you out.
I've seen this happen in other peoples' lives, but now it's happening in mine...
Content aside, I fail to see what was written to create such a heated first response! Justin stated his opinion by writing "I feel it is a bit insensitive". He did not say "you are being insensitive", nor did he use insulting or disrespectful statements.
I do not feel Justin's response was "was uncalled for" or "untactful" by any stretch. If his interpretation was wrong, then correct his assumption--but in a constructive and thoughtful manner. I just don't see how he deserved such a harsh snap judgement.
In one way I just really want to stay out of and above this fray, because I think it's pointless. Meanings in writing get interpreted so many different ways be people with their own presumptions that it would take Sandra Day O'Conor to sort it all out.
That said, I didn't have as much a problem as what ByteDoc said, which is after all a truim beileved by many people (you learn from your first mistakes and correct them the second time around). I stil think it's insensitive without further qualitifcation because in this context it almost automatically applies to Taunya, given that my blog entry was about ME and MY search for the right woman.
The problem I have is with luvcotons, who took a personal shot at me by saying what I said (which I beieve expressed my feeings but not in a derogatory manner) was uncalled for, and then further attacking me in an unrelated, or at best tangential, way by caalling into question my ability to and even willingness to make judgments without knowing the whole story.
Who of us in the world, and particularly on a blog, does in fact know the whole story about anything? For every site like this I've read where people are generally constructive and encouraging, I've seen 10 where each person tries to one up the last poster by insulting his heritage, lifestyle, or facial features.
I don't and will never ever opporate under the assumption I'm perfect, or know everything, but I certainly do go around trying to piss people off for the fun of it. I actually try to understand what they're saying and give them the benefit of the doubt when there are unclear issues.
But this response made Taunya very upset and she let me know she felt she'd been a "mistake" and a "trial run" for me, and reading through the post I understand her feelings. If her interpretation missed the point, that is unfortunate but perhaps in this situation the burden of clarity chould have fallen on the poster, not the reader. Relationships are sensitive issues.
I'm not going to hold any grudges or think about this any further. Misunderstandigs occur, and people can go round all night justifying what they said and how they were taken out of context. All I can say is that I understoof how Taunya felt, said my piece in defense of her, and stand. I don't think of us are bad people trying to hurt one another.
Sorry for the typos in the previous post. I meant "by" prople not "be" people; "with what ByteDoc said" not "as what ByteDoc said"; "calling" not "caalling"; "operate" not "opporate"; and MOST CRUCIALLY "don't go aroung trying" and not "do go around trying"; "should" not "chould"; "understood" not "understoof"; "and stand by it" not "and stand"; and lastly, "don't think any of us" not "don't think us".
Oy vey. Been a long and grueling day. I wish there were an easy way to edit comments; are there? Anyway, I'm sorry for the confusion these typos may have caused. I will start doing finger exercises from now on to ensure the elimination of such heinous inaccuracies in the future.
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