A possibly futile quest.

Secobarbital (Seconal) was discontinued in 2001 as a result of it being legally used in Oregon for physician-assisted suicides. This leaves Nebutol and the much less reliable and slower-acting Phenobarbital as the only barbiturates left on the market (to my knowledge). People used to abuse "reds" and the like so much they attracted notoriety and bad press means decreased legal prescriptions and thus sales. Really makes it hard on the rest of us!

Looking like some kind of KCN/H2/NO2 solution might have to do the trick. Too bad about cleaner catalytic converters and paranoid psychiatrists... but there will always be a way, if that's your choosing. Drowning and exposure scare me but they have some Zen qualities to them. There's something called a Darvon cocktail ("Bartender, I'll have another!") that's supposed to be painless, though again getting the ingredients would be next to impossible. And of course, this is all assuming that decision's been made. I am not here to judge.

Barbarism begins at home, maybe healing begins in a Buddhist stupa. Each to his or her own... don't be an asshole and judge other people's minds and spirits based solely on experiences gathered by your own flawed apparatus. Everyone should have the right to do what they want with their own bodies. God knows we spend so much time and energy in this world abusing other peoples'. It's a decision that can only be made by each person individually. Namiste.