Wednesday, October 4

it's nighttime now in so many ways
the last fading rays of happiness are dying
and all of the things i was looking forward to are undoable
or not worth the doing
i still hear footfalls trod upon my ceiling, night and day
someone can't seem to fall asleep or stay away
and ashtrays... smells like someone's been smoking by the pool again
they made a rule against that

they even put up some new board to cut off the shortcut
people were taking to the 7-eleven
we kicked that through in less than a day
and I'm on may way home with a heart charged with hope
maybe cope, good emails, chat, documentaries, a night for me
but i still hear those damn footfalls and I realize with a huffed release of breath
none of these things which I have anticipated so greatly
are worth the doing, delay death.
Posted by Metamatician on Wednesday, October 04, 2006

1 comment:

JOVIAN said...

you originally had "stay away" instead of stay awake. i think it makes more sense the original way.

i often think of this myself. is the routine of planning the evening, going through with the evening, and then going to sleep, actually worth doing? you forget about what you did in a few days anyway because nothing real was accomplished. on the flip side, sitting there alone doing nothing is not really any different. instead of the tv screen putting out images and sounds to distract you, your mind is doing it. contrary internal voices, random images from your memory, plans for the future and laments of the past.
the only time i've ever truly felt at peace is when i'm meditating.

October 05, 2006

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